i bet you didn't know that I am
terrified of spiders,
and every time I think of you, I smile.
I bet you don't know that I hate thunderstorms
but love dancing in the rain.
or how much I laugh with my friends
&& how much I truly enjoy being happy.
I bet you don't know how many tears
I've cried just for you,
or how much I doubt myself every day.
I bet you don't know how random I am
or how I can't make decisions.
&& how it drives me crazy
when you look into my eyes.
I bet you didn't know that I would
do anything to be with you.
But mostly I bet you didn't know
how much I love you.

i really miss your hair in my face.
and the way your innocence tastes.
and i think that you should know this,
you deserve much better than me

i guess when you break it down,
i'm just so afraid of life, death, love,
hate, friendship. i'm paranoid.
i'm terrified. i'm such a disaster.
and what scares me the most ...
i don't think anybody notices.

i can't explain what i'm going through.
but i would turn away the world tonight,
just so that i could be with you.

you're just a scene boy who smells of cigarettes.
and i'm a hardcore girl with too much makeup.
yeah, this is how teenage love should be.

so don't explain cause i know exactly what your going to say.
big words, recycled phrases, and the bittersweet taste of other girls on your lips.

you're everything out of the ordinary,
but nowhere near eccentric. you just can't be classified.
& that's what i love about you.

i found the guy who can make me smile, just by the way he says hello when he picks up the phone. the guy who makes my hands shake when im sitting next to him and the guy who isn’t afraid to keep hugging me , when im not really ready to let go.

This bottle clearly states,
Do not over use he's highly unpredictable.
Now tell me whats that on your breath?
You reek of cheap perfume and sex.
So tell me is it worth it,
to stay up late at night wishing on every falling star?




I'll keep on driving,
so we can talk a while.
i know i could drive all night
just to stay here with you.
at the end of the night we'll embrace,
and stare at the star-filled sky.
would it be alright
if we didn't say goodbye this time

That's me in the corner,
That's me in the spotlight,
Losing my religion.
Trying to keep up with you
And I don't think I can do it.

I layed there just thinking of you
and how much fun we had that night.
For once, love isn't looking so scary.

Young and crazy.
Life is too precious to worry about the stupid crap,
so have fun, party, dance all night,
fall in love, say anything you want,
do what you want to do and regret nothing.

And If I was in a crowd,
you probably wouldn't notice me.
I don't really stand out &
I don't talk much to people I don't know.
It's kind of hard to know me or be friends
with me, so I advise not to waste your
time on me... but that doesn't mean
I don't want you to try.

THINGS THAT MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING:
Falling in love.
Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
Milkshakes.
Bubble baths.
Giggling.
Long convo’s late at night.
The beach.
Running through sprinklers.
Laughing at an inside joke.
Laughing at yourself.
Laughing so hard your stomach hurts.
Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
Just plain laughing.
Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
Friends.
Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
First kisses.
Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
Playing with a new puppy.
Sweet dreams.
Hot chocolate.
Road trips with friends.
Making chocolate chip cookies.
Holding hands with someone you care about.
Watching the sunrise.
Watching a sunset.
Getting out of bed in the morning after sleeping in and looking out the window to see its sunny, birds are chirping, and kids are playing.
Knowing that somebody misses you..

Admit it, we flirt with eachother.
We have so much fun with eachother.
We laugh at each other. we even try
to be with eachother. i believe
That we SECRETLY love eachother.

Suck on my fingertips
until you kill all my prints
so your girlfriend has no clue
of how much I've been touching you.

so let's end these conversations,
and i'll give you your congratulations.
you've left me bare and burned out,
with a broken heart and mind.
i heard it all heals in time.

There are some things I regret
some words I wish had gone unsaid,
some starts that had some bitter endings.
there are some mistakes that I have made
some chances I just threw away
some roads I never should've taken
some pages turned some bridges burned
but there were lesson's learned.

Let's destroy each other
Because were too cool for love lines.
Soft kisses over cheap wine.
Smoke me baby, like your last cigarette.
Whisper to me,say you'll never forget.
Could you break my heart a little more?

I liked it when my fingers were entangled in yours
& my head was on your chest,
listening to your heartbeat. It made me feel safe,
like at that moment, nothing bad could touch me.

I don't know, when I'm with you I just,
I never know whats going to happen next.
It's weird because my life is so planned out.
It's like you don't care what people think...
and when I'm with you... I don't care what people think.

You could be my anti-depressant
I'd like to try something new
& you'd think by now I would have learned my lesson
But I still like to overdose on you ‘

i believe in sleeping in.
I believe in giving 100% when you only have 80.
I believe in love, arguing,
& jamming out by yourself in the car.
I believe in kisses on the forehead.
I believe in long kisses, smiling til your cheeks hurt,
& laughing until you cry.
I believe in being silly and crazy with your friends.
I believe in taking chances and making mistakes.
I believe in having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
I believe in swinging on swings
& running in the rain.
I believe in miracles & random acts of kindness.
I believe in saying hello to anyone & everyone.
I believe in second chances.
but i don't believe that everyone deserves one.

so talk, come on and open up, it's only me.
it's the same old me, the one you used to love.

a little jealousy
i hope you think of me
hope you wonder where i sleep at night
cause i feel like i'm inside out
you got me upside down
maybe i was holding on too tight

From time to time i have regrets
For all the things i didn't say
That were on my list
From time to time my memory slips
But you're the one thing in my life
I won't forget

I've got some problems
but we've got 10 dollars
that's enough to get us wasted before the night is over
These past five days I've been completely sober
But tonight I'm getting ripped wide open

There's a part of me that wants to quit
And go off somewhere far, far away
In a quiet town down by the ocean
Where there is a church filled with sorrow
Where I can give my heart back to God

Don't wake up until late afternoon
Smoke a pack and down a few shots
And by five I'm ready to pick up where we left off last

I smoke too much now
That getting high just isn't getting high anymore
It's like a daily vitamin that keeps broken glass off the floor

I'm sick of second chances
Cigarettes turn to ashes
I'm standing under street signs
To know the places I've been my whole life

I fear you won't be far behind
Thinking I'll be the next to leave
I know I might be anxious
But I'm still not crazy

Oh, we're bored to death.
We've got a bottle of wine and a fresh pack of smokes.
We're going to end up screaming about some midnight garage sale.

we spent our nights on the sidewalks
streetlights and stop signs held our destiny
we peeled out through the intersection
hoping to feel a little more free
but kids like us aren't lucky enough
yeah, we will never get out of this town

That's why I'm singing, baby, don't worry
Because now I've got your back
And every time you feel like crying
I'm gonna try to make you laugh
And if I can't, if it just hurts too bad
Then we'll wait for it to pass
And I will keep you company
Through those days so long and black

you keep changing your mind about me,
just a little too much. do you think it's okay to
break my heart over and over again ?
because i don't. maybe that's because you
don't care about my feelings. well let me tell you,
i'll get you back someday. don't forget it.

and you broke me like the cigarette that i busted on the day i quit.
but now that i've been drinking, i'm outta smokes and i wish i had it.
woke up to my daily headache and the realization that you are gone.
oh my sweet darling happiness, you've been away from me all along.

and i've become content
with this lie that i lead.
where i smoke too much,
and don't believe in much of anything.

give us brilliant boys that we want to fuck.
full of ecstasy, hard drugs, and bad luck.
turn the lights back on. you burn so hard, but
you won't burn long.

let's drink this bottle to the very last drop.
and smoke these cigarettes to the filters.
lets wake up the next morning full of regret.

you and i should get away for awhile.
i just want to be alone with your smile.
buy some candy and cigarettes and we'll get in your car.
we'll blast the stereo and we'll drive to California.

there are no words to describe how I feel for you. we've been through everything together. from love letters to the phone calls we had till 3 in the morning, not wanting to hang up. from the I hate you's to the I love you's. from when I used to hang the phone up but then call you the second I hung up. from when I use to start crying cause we used to get into those stupid arguments. you would always be there wiping my tears away. and when I used to see you, I would always get those little butterflies in my stomach. no one in this world can take your place. It's that Romeo and Juliet love .


so just kiss me, and let my hair messy itself
in your fingers. let me steady myself in the arms
of someone who won't ask me to be what he
needs, but lets me insist as I am.

I hate when I get so frustrated . Everything just goes wrong all at once, and I try so hard to fight it. But the tears, they always come. I'm so scared of falling, because once I do, it's fight after fight to get back up. It could take days, months, years even. I don't know if I have that kind of strength anymore. Please don't let me fall.

You turned out to be more than I bargained for
and I can tell that we both just need to get away
forgive me, if I admit, that I'd love to love you
but I'm afraid we'll both realize it when it gets too late.

second chances, yeah that's what i said.
if you gave me one of those we wouldn't
be in this fucking situation now would we?
you either want me, or you don't.
we aren't just your normal friendship.
best friends is an understatement.


did you know that
she doesn't care if you call her
and wake her up in the middle
of the night; or early in the
morning. she hates arguing
but you knows shes good at it.
shes terrified of the dark and
gets even more terrified when
something happens that even
makes the slightest possibilty
that shes gonna loose you.
everytime she sees you she
can't help but smile. she
can't wait too just run up
too you and give you a hug
because too her, that's the
best feeling in the world.
yeah i guess you could just
say that she'd
.do anything for you*

sometimes it seems so tough, good friends are not enough & I'm powerless to help. when you take it all upon yourself, feels like you just can't win. the whole wide world is closing in & it's so hard not to think the worse when you're the center of the universe I see you struggling with the wait of the world remember I'm always by your side. too many problems for one little girl. I'll be beside you when all your tears have dried I lay next to you at night I know something's just not right but there's nothing I can say when you feel ten thousand miles away I don't have all the answers yet but I get scared when you're upset & your heart feels like an empty home when you feel so scared & all alone think everybody's talking about you & conspiring to bring you down you're thinking that nobody loves you ever wonder why I'm still around.


I've been running around for the past year trying to find some clarity, and all of a sudden it's so clear, it's ridiculous. I just want to be with you.



the distance is quite simply
much too far for me to row.
it seems further than ever before.
oh no, i need you so much closer.

just once in my life,
i want someone else to kiss first.
i want someone else to lie awake and
wonder what the right words are,
if they'll be rejected, if they're ruining
a great friendship. i want him to want me
so much that he can't help himself, that he's
willing to risk everything for a chance to be with me.

you've hurt more than i've ever been hurt
before. but that's not the part that bothers me,
really. the part that really bothers me is the
fact that i still love you.

almost got me feeling like I don't need you.
But I swear to god I do!

do you know how confusing you are?
you are the most confusing person in the world.
sometimes you confuse me so much that
i get confused about why i`m still so crazy about you.

you know you like her.
Would it kill you to admit it?
Maybe treat her halfway decent?
She deserves it, you know.
She won't wait around forever for you.
And you will regret it

I'm just another silly teenage girl
who keeps her hopes too high,
and her jeans too low.
Who lives by quotes and can't ever
seem to say the right thing at the right time.
Just another pretty girl, looking for herself,
in a big bad world.
Who wants someone to love her, and then
everything would be okay.

tell me just why is this worth fighting for,
i've been knocked around so many times
that I don’t know if I can get up anymore...
and for what? Cause it's all the same

This is to the nights when you've dealt with more drama than you wanted to cause your a nice person. To the nights that you drank too much & make mistakes that no one forgot for months & months. This is to the nights that you hooked up with that guy, feeling used & alone after. To the nights when you would have rather sat home watching a movie but instead got dressed up in clothes that werent as comfortable as your sweatpants, went to that party that you really didnt want to be at, to find the boy you like sitting there with another girl. To the nights that you cant wait until everyone grows up; cause your tired of everyone around you, judging you. To those nights, that unfortunately come too often.

Well, I'm a wreck.
I really can't explain it, but I hear the music when I look at you,
orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment.
The world doesn't mean as much as you do.
No one means as much as you do. No one ever did.



everyone's a let down,
it just depends on how far down they can go.
in every circle of friends there's a whore,
the one who flirts and does a little more.
but who's to say?
this is a social scene anyway.

and in the end, we always end up
doing the things we said we never would,
loving people we said we'd always hate,
and being the people we said we'd never be.

Cause like you said, this is it.
This is life. And I’m in love with you.
I think that’s the only thing
I’ve ever been really sure of my entire life.
I'm really messed up right now
and I got a whole lotta stuff I gotta work out,
but I don’t wanna waste anymore of my life without you in it

i guess what hurts the most isn't that i dont have you..
its at one point, i did.
its that i can go to sleep missing you, dream im with you,
then wake up, and realize once more that i dont have you.
maybe what hurts the most is not that i'm no longer enough..
but at one point,
i was.

& its hard to forget
how many lies we've told.
or how old we'd grow
before i said goodbye.
so lets scrape our knees on the playground just one more time

purple pills and midnight chills
and I wish you knew yourself the way I did then
it's sad now that the melody of broken hearts
is the only music that calms your senses

I think the reason I still have feelings for you
is because I am terrified. I am terrified to let you go.
What if I don't find someone else like you?

I try to fool myself. I try to pretend
that I want someone else. But deep down,
I know that I always wished for you

and he would never understand her
and she would never trust him.
two kids with a common interest:
they loved each other.
but they were just so scared.

I thought that this is what I wanted.
for you to see me as beautiful. for you to look
at me the way you look at her. but the truth is,
that's not really what I want at all.
I want you to look at me and see the person
that you've always known and realize that
what we've had is so much more incredible
than just some passing physical attraction.

And we were only supposed to have some fun.
I wasn't supposed to fall in love. But that was your plan all along.
Make her fall, and then let her hit the ground.
Leave before she could admit what you had done.

And what I truly want isn't all that much.
I know you could never love me,
but I still want a few stolen kisses,
I still need you to hold my hand.
I want just a taste of what being yours is like.



Crisp leaves, coffee shops, and long, plaid scarves.
Autumn winds, photographs, and starry nights.
Our hands laced together, and you squeezing me tight.
I can't remember a Fall ever feeling so right.

She hides herself with music. She never shows her feelings,
always keeping things bottled up inside.
I'd hate to see the day she exposes it all.
When she tells you how you've made her feel,
you'll never be able to look at her the same way again.

cause these are the days worth living.
these are the years we're given.
& these are the moments,
these are the times,
so let's make it the best of our lives.



one morning you'll wake up and you'll think, 'how did i get here?' you'll inhale a long drag of smoke through your lungs, and before you can exhale, pictures from your life pop into your head. behind each picture lies a story. the first picture you see will make you smile. the image will remind you of a time when you were happy. actually happy. the kind of happy that makes you jumble your words, the kind of happy that makes your insides twist, the kind of happy that makes you use the word 'forever.' the next image that pops up shows you your lowest low. the kind of low that told you to slit your wrists, the kind of low that makes you pull your hair and scream, the kind of low that never wants to know how long forever is. then you'll look around you and you wont know whether to laugh or to cry. and you'll think 'i've loved and i've hated.' and you'll realize that you wouldnt have to hate if you never knew love.